"I just need to know that it's possible that two people can stay happy together forever."
Almost 24.This ache in my chest is infrequent now- this longing, this nostalgia.Almost 24. by loopy-lexy
Unrequited love is a sorrow you’ll miss, I promise.
I need to feel this way to feel I have anything left to say.
I’m not sixteen years old anymore.
I’m almost twenty-four and I know what I want and who I want to be and who I want to be with.
And I’m fine.
And sometimes, when I’m lucky, when the window rattles with wind and rain and the air smells like winter, sometimes-
I still ache.
i wonder what you could possibly knowThe world is moving too fast for me.i wonder what you could possibly know by loopy-lexy
I can barely take a breath before
everything is gone or changed or
missing and I'm emptier than I was
yesterday, when I was as empty as I could be.
I turn on the porch light as though
I'm waiting for someone. And perhaps I am,
because not waiting is foreign to me.
It takes all my don't-wants to figure out what I do want.
I don't want to just see how it goes. I
don't want to be convenient. I don't
want to be an optional possibility.
I want to be a big event.
mankind is disappointing.when did you becomemankind is disappointing. by loopy-lexy
someone i don't know [if i
even want to know]?
june.I think it's your birthday today.june. by loopy-lexy
I should be certain but sometimes
it seems as though everyone was
born in June
and it makes me wonder
what happened in October '89
that had everyone making love.
I don't know about '89 but
in 2009 you were the glue mending
my broken excuse for a heart,
the breath in my every laugh.
I was addicted to your logical, reassuring mind
and ever-present promise of hope.
I was addicted to being needed,
to keeping all the secrets tearing you apart.
I miss being your turquoise terminator
and crumpled crumpet and saucy salamander
and effervescent iguana.
I miss complaining and over sharing
and knowing you'd listen to it all.
I miss believing we'd have that love forever.
So maybe I'll say happy birthday
and we can keep pretending nothing is wrong.
Or I'll pretend I forgot, the same way you forgot mine.
Or I'll congratulate you-
twenty-one years old
and still too thick to see how you've broken my heart.
it hurts to cryi. there's a message in the heat of coffee and the glare of sunshine and maybe if i look hard enough i'll find it. perhaps the hollow of your heartbeat will open my eyes to the newspaper black-and-white of passing thought and i'll be able to hold onto you without feeling like i'm missing something.it hurts to cry by insideruby
i know it hurts to cry.
ii. the past is
and yet i know it has
its own nets and lures of
so it can grab on
with its gritty fingers and
pull you into
where emotions are
unchanging and words are
unchanging and lies are
iii. i miss the days that smell of my guitar case and ring with echoes of friendships. you followed me from one life to the next and i'm not sure if you should have. these days hold silver and cold, and i want to go home.
iv. i don't know you but i love you.
it's raining. there's a strainer in the sky, and it's raining, and
oregon apple orchardshello xy,oregon apple orchards by singmelovesongs
i've been waiting for you but you're not what i expected-
your hair is shorter and your face is darker but i love you all the same,
even though your hands are slightly too small and you don't smell like the soil in my dreams.
we can watch broken birds try to fly or
catch earthworms finding their ways through the dirt or
just hold hands and pretend like no one else exists.
that sounds good to me.
you brush my hair like it's made of gold and i look
at you like there's no one else in the room, and everyone
knows it but us because we are the same-
too sleepy to open our eyes.
too tired of non-sense making no-sense.
you go back to her every night to taunt me,
and she clings to you like
you have her on strings, and one is right on her heart.
she runs back to you even though they told her about us,
even though she knows you brush my hair like it's gold.
even though we both know she's just filling your time while you wait.
you're silly, you.
you'll never have me because
it would be t